Do you play full out?
Holding back, even a little, reveals a fundamental distrust of your circumstances, which actually permits your deepest fears to manifest.
Why do you distrust your circumstances? Could it be you see yourself as a victim? Or an unwilling partner in the creation of your life? Or you lack faith, having doubt about the future? When you “hedge your bet,” you're actually betting against yourself.
Not being fully invested in your own practice gives you a convenient “out” and an excuse for any shortcoming that arises. It’s a convenient face-saving strategy that actually sows the seeds for the very disappointment you fear.
Instead, this week, commit! Put on a pair of rose-colored glasses. Instead of the downside, concentrate on the upside. Assume everything is going to work out perfectly. Because it always does. It may not be what you expected, but remember, every effect has a cause.